olevels is almost over... left last paper...
actually quite lazy to blog,
but cos there's many stuffs on my mind, and i feel tat nobody wants to hear all these craps...
=x nnn i think my olevels die le... cos i nvr finish all my papers except for english leh...
tat sucks lah! just pray hard that results won't be very bad...
nnn noe wad? i had a scary nightmare during the exams period...
i dreamt that i was late for emaths olevels paper for about 2 hrs...
then not allowed to go in...
then when i was pondering over it, tang came over and asked
"rence, how's the paper"
and that made me super sad... but weird leh...
y suddenly gt tang? maybe cos he keep saying that my results bad n blabla...?
think so bah... haiz...
nnn noe wad? i super sway...
on the 1st day and 3rd day of olevels, i had diarrhea and both days 3tyms sumore...
its unsual for me to hav diarrhea lor... sumore that caused me to lose my appetite for the day, and i ate a meal that 2 days...
think olevels caused me to have unhealthy diet...
for 4 days, i have been eating veri little
i either only eat 1 or half a meal a day... duno if its cos the meal sucks, or my prob... =x
nnnnnnnnnnnnn =(
i duno y, these days i've been think bout my P n the D stuffs...
i duno y... it started when i was watching a show, and they played a christmas song 'silent night'
that song reminds me of the last trip i gone as a F
and the last christmas spent tgh...
i said last, is cos i feel that that can never happen again...
i cannot celebrate christmas or go overseas as a family again...
maybe go wit a F member, but there will always be at least sum1 missing...
during that period, though P are bz, we still stay as a F for only 2 months...
during that time i was happy, but hoped that we can stay in s'pore instead of hk,
cos for th prev few yrs, i wished that i can stay as a F tgh...
that time seriously happy, and it feels dreamy...
though its happy, right now when think of it,
it feels super sad... i reli hated myself for being so stupid...
i believed my P, when they said they will come bk...
but... so damm stupid lah! that is a lie... we can nvr be tgh as a F... =(
wadeva, since its hard for me to truely believe someone again...
haiz... silent night... the song is nice, feels dreamy, but reminds me of my sad memories again... i really want to lose my memory, and not remember about those...
sometimes i that life is meaningless for me...
if only my P nvr giv birth to me, then i dun nd to endure those craps...
how i wish that i weren't born... =( T.T

screamed at the top of my voice just now...
cos my idiot sis wake me up from my nap...
for me to find a time to sleep is so hard...
it is today that is special cos its the graduating ceremony...
i feel soso when i reach home, and alil tired...
when i finally fall aslp,
my idiotic sis wake me up cos she wants to shower...
why can't she shower when she reach home?
y must wait until i come home den shower
den tell her later den come in,
she insist of taking the key to open the door...
hello, know what is privacy?
i damm pissed lah! i intend to take another 15mins nap den open...
den she made me so angry that i screamed and shout at the top of my voice,
and i can't get back to sleep alr...
instead, i feel so like crying and pull her hair...
FK!!! it seriously spoil my mood lah!
i wan to be civilized, but... it irritates me lah
is that my communication skills sucks?
y can't people just understand what i am talking about?
sometimes i feel like smashing stuffs in the middle of a conversation...
i made myself so clear that i will open later...
y can't she just understand?
arrrrgh!!! I just wish that i stay alone,
when there is nobody to irritate me, or quarrel with me...
at least i won't get pissed so often...
urrragh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE SIS!!!!!

=x blogging late at night again...
but, i feel like blogging leh...
although everybody is busy studying that they have no time to read my blog...
but i think that this blog is the only place that i can like complain?
cos when i start to complain, everybody will be like... dun bother to listen...
so right here when i complain here, i do not have to see the frustrated faces of people...
haiz... =x so i'll start...
=x now everybody are busy studying, except for me...
i know i should start, but i am still the same...
lying there, duno how to start, and duno where to start...
i shouldn't be doing that now... i know
but thats me...
the habit of sleeping late and wake up late can't change...
and during weekdays, staying back after school tires me out...
whenever i reach home, i either take a nap then proceed to eat n stuffs...
or tv...
ya, thats my fault...
but seriously, i am sick of going to school
its tiring...
and i feel that i am learning nothing...
teachers come in n go through assignments given to us...
but staying back after school is tiring enough for me.
doing the assignments really tire me out...
haiz...
when i am complaining, i keep thinking bout advice ppl gave me...
all of them say the same thing... time management...
i know, n i also want to manage my time correctly...
but... all my habits...
how to change? =(
again, i can picture people telling to stop watching tv, stop using com...
i wonder... if there is any other ways to solve the problem?

turned 17 at 17/09/09
hahas~ the number like veri nice hor??
lalalas~ i am being lame... =x
todae is so-so, a normal school day...
got my art results... scored 50%...
=( though finally passed, i feel tat it sucks!
=( i seriously doubt tat i can get into lasalle or even nafa...
haiz...
den after school, the gals sae wan go eat lunch...
went kfc... ate nth much, but drank alot of water...
den they lead me to the 2nd floor, beside lrt station...
saw a cake...
n then they sang a song, and wished me...
=x but tat tym i've got nothing much to sae...
nothing comes to my mind... =x
then green man came, n sae can't eat there...
we went to other place to cut cake,
and eat...
=) the cake is chocolate cream cake!! =D
but its too sweet... =x i can't eat too sweet stuffs... =x=x=x
but nvm, i enjoyed todae... =)

thanks girls, thanks for celebrating my birthday even though u are busy at this period...
thanks alot!!

todae is the last day of prelims, which is the sci mcq n art paper...
didn't slp the whole night cos i was drawing...
then in the end, during my science paper, i almost dozed off
drank coffee during the break but nvr eat...
then during art paper, i spent lots of tym on body,
in the end my background cmi... its just using colour pencil to draw shape of a tree...
took 2 mins...
urrrgh!! it sucks lor....
how am i going to use my p2 to pull my p1 marks?!
haiz...
den while walking home, feel hungry, faint and alil lyk vomitting...
then went home, n napped....
at least hav ard 4hrs of slp... =D
haiz... tmrw gt to go sch... =(
i reli wan a day to rest leh... rest, n not think bout olevels... tats wad i wan =D
but... =( that can nvr happen till i finish my last olevels paper...
n btw, i think my last paper is art agn...
URGH!!! feel so....
duno how to describe...
my art how?
p1 submitting on next wk...
then p2 gt tym limit...
what can i do? be prepared for the worst?
retake my arts next year?
but i wan to get into lasalle or atleast nafa...
but if i score veri badly or average for art,
even if i meet the requirements to go into the sch, i might not be able to get in...
then what should i do?
retake my olevels?
i feel tat i am lyk wasting my time like this lor...
haiz... =( i reli got no idea how my future will be like... =(

todae's a sucky day...
hp gt confiscated! urgh!!!
that spoiled my mood for the day...

ugh! i bought something online again... =x
die lah... i keep buying stuffs... overspend already lah...

haiz... i hate to study at home...
at home, instead of studying, i do all other stuffs...
eeeee... tat sucks!
i need to study!!!!

i don't know how to use words to describe my feeling now... :'(
.
.
.
i haven complete my prep board,
and teacher says that there is already no touch up session.
what am i going to do?
i really don't wish to give up my art.
without finishing the prep board, even if my final is perfect also no use.
sumore my final is not perfect.
and i am not confident of doing well in my p2.
with all these negative points,
my chance of getting a1 is 0%!
seriously, though i looked as if i dun care about negative comments about my art from people,
i tried to make it appear as nice as possible.
even though teacher says i didn't have chance of getting an a1,
i don't believe.
as long as i have alittle time to do something to it, i still have a chance to get a1.
but now, teacher say that no more touch ups.
what am i going to do?!
i need that a1!
i want to get into art course!
without that grade, i have a low chance of getting in!
sumore, even if i get in, i still can't accept that!
i don't feel that its my best work, and i will never be satisfied with it!
like chinese, even though i got the grade i want, i am still not satisfied.
ya, it is my standard.
i improved.
but the thing is that i never put in my best, and its incomplete.
i hate handing incomplete work!
=( i don't wish to have that feeling again.
i really want to complete it...
i can imagine how i feel when i receive my results if i can't complete it.
i know, i should get this off mind, and just do my p2 and also study other subjects.
but i can't do that!!!!!!
i can't forget that!!!
i really want to perfect my work...
i don't want my work to be submitted when it is flawed
incomplete work means flawed work too
urgh!!!!
can't this just disappear from my mind?

i hate being a perfectionist when it comes to my own work...

th mother tongue results are out...
i have gt a c6.
yes, i passed...
but i have got a pass, i slept during paper 3 and paper 2...
i duno if i should feel happy about the fact that i passed,
or feel unhappy that i did not do my best during the exams.
i feel that the night b4 th exams if i have sufficient sleep,
maybe my grades can be better...
though i tell ppl that i don't want to retake cause i finally passed,
but i am seriously wondering if i should retake the exams.
cause even when my oral have a pass,
i can also improve when i do finish my paper.
only when i finish my paper 2, then i can say that i did my best for th exams.
so, should i be satisfied with my pass, or i should try my best???

i keep telling myself i want to post on my blog... but never do that cause i am too lazy...
=/ supposed to be at art ace, but cos was uninformed bout the ace, nvr bring colour pencil.
so go alr oso no use... then go home... had to go prep board...
but decided tat i take a nap 1st =x
haiz... todae is mt oral. i know my reading cmi already.
but luckily, the examiner got distracted cos of a spilled coffee... so hope i won't get too low marks.
the conversation... duno wad to say. but i crapped alot!
hahas~ its bout teenagers nt liking to exercise...
then they ask. what are the benefits of exercising? then i replied. 'can lose weight'
then she asked 'uh? are you fat?' and she looked surprise... =x
this question is unexpected sia... i thought tat she would just nod her head... =x
den spin some craps for her lor... =x

back to previous few days....
then saturday, went to school, practice oral, then go home, then go out wit sis.
went to bugis, ate at some hk restraunt. veri full.
then study, then shop for dress... but dun intend to wear them...

then sunday, slacked the whole day...

monday... lessons!! =.=
then otw home at the bus, saw a cute gal... so hyper!! n keep smiling...
hehes~ SOOOO CUTEEEEEE~~~~

TIRED!!! i survived 1 week of doing hw nonstop...
nt really do nonstop lah... but do until i going crazy...
everyday do hw in sch till 6, then go home...
slacked n napped till bout 12+, then do hw... =x
its like no life...
i spend so much time on the hw, and i still left alot undone... =(
and to add on to my troubles,
i have got to hand up all my artworks on thursday.
thats so sudden!! though i will try my best to do art,
i am nt confident of submiting my work on time...
=( feel like releasing those pent up frustrations on my mind,
but can't find a way without disturbing ppl... =( gt no choice... keep inside.
hmmm....
alot of things is on my mind... haiz...
but i think cos too tired or what, can't sort them out... =( nvm
but wanted to update the class blog de...
but too tired, n no mood... =x
nnn tmrw gt to go sch... =( haix...
can't slp till noon agn... but gt to go sch... i wan to pass mt oral!!
=/ i think i gt nth to blog le... my mind is empty now... =( can't think about anything

hmmmm... was reading amica magazine last night or early this morning...
read about touring around hongkong, and they mention about this place.
The Victoria Peak.
or smth like that...
=/ thought about last time when i went there and enjoy this scenery...
i remember sitting somewhere,
and remember the previous time i went there...
hmmm... at that time,
i don't know anything, and that trip is somewhat a surprise for me,
as it is planned last min.
in addition, we went there as a family...
i remember that time, there are no troubles, or sad memories.
but instead, i don't know anything, and enjoy the scenery with my sister.
=/ at that time, i didn't know how lucky i am to have this feeling.
i thought that i can experience that multiple times in future.
=/ hmmm... how i wish that i can go back to the past,
when the whole family can go abroad together,
and that was the time i do not have anything to worry about.
plus, my parents will bring us to view the nice scenery... =/
miss those days...~

blas~...
i find that there is something wrong with me seriously...
cos... i sleep and wake up at the wrong time...
and i eat one meal today only...
i think i broke my record of eating more than one meal a day...
las~ i am dead... i have got alot of holidays homework still not done!!!
=(

1st day of school...
I AM SOOOO TIRED!!!!
i purposely try to pack my bag as early as possible,
and calculate about 7 hrs of sleep.
BUT!!!! when i am prepared to sleep,
i found out that I CAN'T FALL ASLP!!!
omg... its cos of my bad sleeping habits...
cos during the holidays, i sleep at 5+am, wake up at 3.
=(
then today the whole day like walking zombie...
and have the floating~ feeling...
then throat oso gt quite dry...
then alil pain... so oni listen, don't talk... =( tats so xin ku...
then lessons...
almost all lessons kana scolded...
cos i oni do half work for all subjects...
so when teacher ask who nvr do? i gotta stand... =(
and get scolding again...
=( ya, and tonight no nd to sleep le...
cos gt to finish all homework...
btw, actually i should not use com de...
but wanna clear all emails 1st...
or else all unread emails flood my inbox jiu die le...
=(
btw, i going off le... =D
or else tmrw float~ agn...

rence, i hate you!
hate you for being such a coward!!!
rence, YOU SUCKS!!!

wake up in the morning,
then prepare to go out.
went to cp, draw money, buy top up card,
then saw mr tang...
waited for quite a few mins then jess n cam reached.
then they decided to go eat... but nt me. cos that i ate sweet.
then after pau n anna came, and they eat finish,
went to marina for bowl...
pau, anna took mr tang's car.
then jess, cam and i took mrt, then bus.
while walking to marina, saw a cleaner wit a lizard on his shirt...
omg!! ewwww.... i screamed... then walked as fast as i can.
its so disgusting!! imagine a lizard on your shirt?? YUCKS!!!!
... i regreted not heading their advice, not to take the 13 ball...
in the end, i found out that i am used to the 10.
then in the middle of the game,
i felt weak, and breathless...
then went to buy redbull, and mentoes.
then went to play the game.
after the game, waited for alas to come.
so went to the place without aircon, and can see the hotels, and flyer.
the tiles there are the old ones.
pauline said something said something that made me think about the past.
which is that she used to go there to play in the past.
that made me think about the past,
when i always go marina, to aunty lin's restaurant.
then agnes and i would try to go away,
and find a quiet place to sit and chat.
that was during the period when we all have to act as if dad n mum is alright.
which made me think further, during the period when mum chased dad out,
but in the end let him into the house to act to others that nothing is happening.
at that time, i sensed that something is wrong, but act like i do not know anything.
and when i know that they are separated, i know that their r/s is near to divorce.
i just pray that their r/s get better instead.
i do not even have the courage to voice out that it bothers me when they are divorced.
when they are divorced, i felt hurt, shocked.
wanted to cry out loud.
but cause of duno what reason,
i wanted to hide my feelings,
and rather cry in the toilet when showering, and before sleeping.
cause of that, i had the habit of hiding my feelings,
and cry in the toilet.
and i hate myself for doing that. i felt that i am a coward who does not dare to tell them anything,
and might indirectly cause that tragedy to happen.
then blabla~
but i was either staring at the dirty water,
or 'sleeping'
so nobody knows.
then alast came. decided to take out all our money,
and den go eat yuki yaki
actually wanted to vomit after eating a mochi.
but cos of lemon juice, didn't vomit.
then eat eat eat.
alast cook the prawn till damm er xin...
dun dare to look...
but i realised that they enjoy seeing me scared... =(
oways laugh when i scream...
eat till wan vomit, then play wit the leftovers =x
then waited for the rest till bored...
so, jess, alas and i left 1st.
went to toilet, then take mrt home...
the mrt ride damm long... almost fall alsp,
but in the end thought of the blabla~
then almost tear... but ren...
then after tat, walk home fr cp...
saw duno wad insect move again...
then walk home as fast as possible home...
i feel that today, i keep seeing alot of insects??
damm unlucky...

how i wish that i can take it easy,
and not let it bother me.
how i wish that there is a day,
when i go to those places, and not think about them.
cause that means that i have already gotten over it.
can i?

went out today...
1st to sch to hand up file...
gt to take temperature...
stupid thermometer... so slow...
i gt to stand there for a few minutes like a fool to take temperature...
then my sis pei me go out...
go to eat, find a place to sit, and also shopping.
then went home...
wow... haven been shopping for like months?
so tired right now... and almost sleep on the bus...

today browsed through your pictures.
realized that throughout the years, our f/s changed.
we had moved further and further away from each other.
then you are bz taking those pictures,
i realized that at that time, i am busy emoing...
maybe, i am buzy emoing these days,
than bonding with you...
can our f/s be like the past again?
or i should ren all the way till i graduate?
maybe, i am fated to be someone who don't have a real close friend?
i duno, seriously, duno...

blas~ omg!!
i have been like slacking at home for the past 1 week??!!!
=x i only done less then half of my assignments...
arrrgh!!! i am not motivated to do hw... =(
haiz... rence, gt to start doing hw le...
its your graduating year!!!
after few months, you can slack all you want...
so, start doing work!!!!
=x

... i jus finished showering cos of some stupid quarrel and a stupid moth...
thats so sucks!!
the whole day is sucky...
cos of the idiot mosquito coil, my bear, pooh and blanket caught the smell.
pestered her to bring bear go dry wash agn on sunday, since she caused it
my 'breakfast' is eaten my my cousins.
then ate cookies and a bun
then 'lunch/dinner' is some sucky food.
ate rice and soup.
then when i am about to shower,
a quarrel broke out... then delayed the shower cause she vomited when she is about to eat medicine.
sis said that its cause she smoke few cigarettes at a time.
then later i was told about her hitting bro.
seriously, i think there is a prob wit her, and she should go see a doctor.
cause she is affecting us...
then when i about to shower again, a moth got in the toilet.
after many hours of waiting,
i got impatient, and used many ways to get rid of it.
then i don't know why, she feel irritated or what,
pulling her hair, and went to smoke again.
seriously, i don't know what is wrong with her.
and i really wish to live peacefully,
and leave here asap. i really hate this place man...
and i guess that i am not the only person who thinks so. sis should be also the same too.

i also want to have positive stuffs to post about.
but those negative ones are happening so often, and bugging me.
so how?? what can i do?
i really want to live an uneventful and peaceful period till i die...
seriously, living on earth sucks
why can't those incidents stop?
why must i go through all these, but not live my life like a normal person??

seriously, damm pissed.
she don't understand that what she does is causing a very big inconvenience for me.
why can't she use other methods to solve the problem?
the method she used, is causing more trouble then help the situation lah!

quarreled wit her few hrs ago...
felt damm angry just now, and cried again....
blas~ she always mention those when we quarrel.
i wanted to forget about it, but how can i when she always mention that?
seriously, i feel irritated with her...
and don't know why did she give birth to me 17 years ago,
when she say that she is not happy.
i am also not happy,
and i am the innocent party.
she gave birth to me, and vent her unhappiness on me?
is it even my fault?
i don't even wan to be born on earth.
it is better not to even exist here.
at least i would experience unpleasant feelings.
i already tried to avoid using harsh words like i hate her when quarreling.
but... i really feel that i can't take it anymore.
i feel that if such things happen again,
i might even lose control and say many hurtful words...
i just hope such incidents never happen...
and i really want to leave this place asap,
and enjoy the freedom i had always yearned.

its not that i am trying to be emo by posting those negative stuffs on the blog.
but its just that i keep thinking about those stuffs, and it will cause me to be emotional.
in order to preventing my from crying all the time,
cause i do not want people to know that i cry, exp family members
i post negative stuffs here, and feel better.
cause i will forget everything.
and think about happie stuffs.
so, like that i feel better what.
i didn't expect that you all will have such reaction.
and, the reason i didn't tell friends what's on my mind, cause mostly its negative.
and i am trying to make myself think that those are nothing, or misunderstandings.
and there is no reason to feel upset.
so, i feel that its better not to tell out,
as i do not want to spoil your mood,
and make you all worry for nothing. since these feelings is normal for me
if nobody expose me.

i guess u have miss interpreted what i am trying to tell you.
cause u all thought that i am crying cause of what u all said...
so i want u to know that that is not the reason.

i said u don't understand me.
i know, and i don't expect anyone to understand me.
cause i know its impossible...

violence.
i didn't realise that you treat the actions i did jokingly as violence.
i did not use violence to show that i am upset.
i am upset when i ignore your jokes.
but is that useful? no.
people will get irritated. but i need them to tell me.
it is not as if i will carry on disturbing them when they say out on spot.

smile.
i smile all day long, is to make me think that i am truely happy, and don't mind anything that happened. that is a way to console myself.
i try to forget all the unhappy stuffs that happened using the smile.
ya, its a mask, hiding my weakness.
i did that all these while, so that you all will not get worried about me.
i can seriously tell you, being truely happy is something that is impossible for me.
i am telling the reason that i always smile, cause i want to tell you that it is something that i have to do.
cause i don't want to show my weakness and be sad all day long.
and i guess you all don't want me to do so right?

about the no link, i don't understand what are u trying to say.

i didn't say i don't care,
didn't say i am not going to change.
but i am constantly changing.
you don't see it, doesn't mean i am not doing.

i said don't know, is not cause of excuses.
i am constantly thinking.
but its just i can't reach a conclusion.
you all just want me to think and then act according to my conclusion.
but i keep telling you that i can't reach a conclusion, and need your help.
but u take it as if i am lazy to think,
and doing nothing.

for the family thing,
ya, its something that can't be changed.
i am trying to accept the fact,
but that memory comes to my mind whenever i am sad.
what can i do?
ya, i envy u all that you come from a happy family.
but i can only sit there and think about mine.
i am already trying to control my emotions,
and i am doing my best.

overall, i am disappointed in you.
after all these years, is that all what u think of me?
i thought that you roughly know that i am doing my best to change.
but u did not think that way.
i think that maybe i shouldn't expect too much from a person?

and i can tell you,
i am intending to swallow my tears until one of you expose what i am trying to hide
so, i can beg u please, don't expose me when you know that i am upset.
if you are curious about what i am thinking, ask me afterwards.
i can tell you everything
i really don't want to cry in front of people again.

and i am not blaming anyone.
the previous post is to tell you that the reason i cry is not what i think.
that's it.
i didn't think it will cause more misunderstandings.

and i don't mind about u sounding harsh.
i just hope that the r/s can remain the same.
but if you think it will be awkward, or still unhappie or what,
tell me.
i can stay away if need to.

had art lessons today...
draw, and had 1 model rejected, and was said that it does not meet requirements,
and will most likely to get a b4...
that saddened me... wanted to break down when miss tong told me...
and i guess she saw that... luckily, i managed to control my emotions...
then had a walk near school...


message to the gals:
its nothing... its just that i can't take criticism when i am already upset...
and ya, i guess u all don't know what happened just now at all...
and i guess i am going to explain my point of view over here, though i don't think u all will read.
1. i oways say something that is no link to the topic
reason being that the incident come to my mind, and cause i am afraid that i forget about it,
i try to sae it out.
or that it is the reason to what i am trying to sae when u ask my comments. i thought u understand what i mean. but, i am wrong.
2. violent...
that is the only way to stop the disturbing. i tried many ways, like asking u to stop. but u all don't know that when i sae that, i am serious. oways think that i am open-minded about those... but u are wrong.
3. saying that i don't want to do something when u all agree to it.
ya, alil sao xing. but there are reasons for doing so... cause u all agree to something that i really don't want to do. so, i sae i don't want. and when i sae that idea is not to my liking, you all ignore me... so, what can i do? sae that i am not going to do.
4. argue.
ya, i oways argue. but i hate the feeling that u all misunderstand me. so, i argue when u all say stuffs that is wrong about me.
5. being not sensative.
ya, it takes sometime to find out that a person is upset with me. but when i know about it, i do not know how to react, and make it not obvious. so its not that i am not sensative, but that i am unsure about how to react.
6. being left out in a conversation.
its either i am feeling very down, thinking about some sad stuffs. or that i am listening, and have got nothing to sae, incase u all say no link again.
7. taking people's efforts for granted.
sometimes i really take things for granted. at the same time, i don't know how to express my about how grateful i am. as i don't express my emotions.
8. asking for opinions and not following it.
ya, i oways do it unknowingly, and don't know how to change it.

overall, i know all my shortcomings, its the same as my time management.
but i can't seem to change. and thats what i hate about myself.
i am crying jus cause of that. what u all say, i know.
i knew that u all weren't very happy, fron your expressions.
i tried to change without you all knowing.
but ya, u know, i can't...
i can't do alot of things. that made me feel useless...
and i am feeling that way now.
i can't do anything except for cry.
to u all, its just excuses.
i keep using words like can't, don't know and helpless
but its true. if u don't believe, i can't do anything.

and the crying... i think its cause i am feeling upset about art.
and with all the criticism, it made me feel worst and cry.
and i cry for a long time, cause i thought of stress,
that leads me to cry longer...
and den think bout family... that 1 not everybody knows...

so, i duno... duno how to change

back home after a loooong day out...
wake up at 7am, go school for emaths revision thingy...
then break at 12, eat till 1+, then do emaths again.
then went to cp, meet jess, go hougang meet chewy,
then search for baby outfits...
then bought them...
then i went to search for wallet cos my old 1 is spoilt...
it looks like rebb's but its different colour, and size...
haiz... cos the shop do not have alot of varities...
so i bought that...
my wallet!!
then we went to cp to shop for clothes for a gift...
played around, then bought what we want...
then go eat dinner at kopitiam...
ate spaghetti the mushroom sauce is alil tasteless...
but that type is my fav...
but cause its a big plate, i never eat finish...
then while walking to bus interchange,
we walked pass the faceshop...
bought 2 nail polish...
quite mature colour...
cause i have been wanting to buy dark colours for a long time...
i think i regreted buying the red 1...
cause is not the red i want...
i want to buy the maroon type of red...
nvm... i bought it le... whats done cannot be undone...
but now, i am broke!!! =x overspent by ALOT!!!!
=x haiz...
how to earn money ne?? i can't cause of school...
too bz le... =x
the red and blach nail polish